Hypnosis, Part I
as I mentioned in the last entry, I decided to try and give hypnotic therapy a shot. well, the visit was very
interesting. I was indeed successfully hypnotised, although it took awhile to get to that point. I did not seem to
recall many memories as to what may have started the behavior. But, with the help of the hypnotist, he was able
to ask me questions and get in touch with the part of my psyche that does this. It was very interesting indeed, to
be able to “talk” to this entity. It is different for everyone, but in my case, it took the form of a hyperactive
bumblebee with devil horns and a tail. heh. He instructed me to talk with the bumblebee, who said she had a lot of
energy and liked to cause problems. It also said it was 12 years old. I really am not sure what happened 12 years ago,
and after thinking about it for awhile yesterday, realized I was fresh into Junior High at that point… maybe I was
struggling with the adaption to the new environment..? He used the terms elven, and mischevious when describing the
entity and that struck me as being very accurate. He tried to speak rationally with the entity and told it that it was
causing me harm… destroying my natural beauty, and that I am now a young woman whos life is being disrupted. He told
me to ask for it’s permission in stopping the behaviour… and after some resistance from the bumblebee… and more
pushing from the hypnotist, it agreed. I hugged the bumblebee, and returned to my plush, purple chair in my
field… and then walked up the white staircase, and back into full conciousness. Boy was I tired after that! I
stretched hugely in the chair after coming to.
I did feel a little more optimistic afterwards, and tried to look at things a little differently… rather than yelling
at myself when I pull and being angry about it, it’s like I’m talking to a small child and telling it to stop it’s
harmful behavior. Although the urges have remained completely intact, yesterday was a fairly pull-free day
(under 20 hairs), although this evening has been considerably more, but I am so tired after partying too hard
last night (and I lost one of my absolute favorite hair falls… I have never been as sad to loose a material
posession in a very long time… they were my FAVORITE falls…. pink, black, and red yarn with pink plastic
pieces… custom made for me, cost like $70 2 years ago and I’d only wear them mostly on very special occasions… not
even sure if the person who made them is still around anymore… I wore 1 of them last night to cover the huge
bald spot visible from the back…gone forever now…=( *huge sigh*….) that I’m not even really trying to stop
myself… although, it’s been almost 2 hours since I started pulling so I should probably try a little bit harder now…
my next appointment is on Monday the 11th. I hope it goes well.
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