dammit!! =(
I had a couple of PF days since I was pretty much around my bf for those couple days, and wasn’t all that bored, but today… I have pulled ALL. DAY. =(( like… 12 hours =( even in the car, while driving!! I’m going to get in an accident if I don’t get that under control =( all started from looking at those STUPID white hairs that I have so many of now… I really am going to have to try and understand that I have to stop letting them bother me, cuz they’re not going to go away!! I just have to continously dye them so this doesn’t keep on happening… just a few white hairs doomed my entire day =(
this SUCKS, I don’t know what to do right now, and now I’ve got 2 really big spots right on the front of my crown near my forehead, literally impossible to hide, gonna have to keep putting black dye on, some of those pulls actually legitimately hurt really badly, too, (since it’s the fine hair in the front), but that still didn’t stop me. my scalp really hurts now. I think I’m going to try taking an ativan (I have some for anxiety/sleep issues) and see if that helps =(
I am so upset now, I thought I was doing good…
time to start slathering on the ointments and getting the LED lamp out again like some kinda cancer patient, I feel disgusting…
someday this won’t control me, hold me tightly in it’s grip for hours…
but that day isn’t now =/