Sanitywarp.org:: Diary of a Trichster

total relapse!  I’ve been going non-stop since that last entry, 3 hours ago  =(   just laying here in bed with my laptop.  Lost track a long time ago, I’m probably up near 100 strands by now.   I can’t seem to stop now, for more than a few minutes anyway… too far into the trance.  My bf should be home in less than an hour, I really hope he’ll hurry up and get home soon and save me!  heh… he doesn’t even know…  all he knows is I have hair loss due to stress, that’s all I’ve filled him in on…

my crown is getting thin again, even with the extensions in, there are some sections that were too short…  so I’ve been pulling those…   now I have to spend like 20 minutes every day arranging my hair so that the extension pieces cover the bald spots.. I feel like the old bald guy trying to comb-over his balding head… =/

but still, I can’t stop… and the little pricks of sensation whenever a hair gets pulled from my scalp, that are supposed to be painful… actually feel good.. and addicting…

I’d better make sure sure to brush all the hair I’ve pulled off the sheets and whatever else it may be piled upon now…

sigh.

Tags: relapse, restlessness, pulling in bed, pull diary, crown, pulling from scalp, ttm, hair extensions, trichotillomania, trich by Isis
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I think that writing it down in here every day has been helping me quite a bit!  Last night at my computer, there were at least 8 times where I felt my hand go up and start to touch the strands, searching for the right one… but I was able to stop myself by thinking,  “but if you pull them now, you won’t be able to write that you’re pull-free anymore, and the day is alllmost over!”

and it totally worked!  =D

yayyyy.   hehe.

oh yeah, and did I mention?!  that I am sooo happy to have MY OWN eyebrows again?   thank you , acrylic nails!!  omg :]

that is all.  I still have to post pix and stuff.  I will as soon as I have time.   nightz.

Tags: 3rd day pull free, pull-free day, pull diary, acrylic nails, eyebrows by Isis
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I had a pull-free day yesterday  =)

think mainly cuz I stayed busy alllll day… and then went to stay at my SO’s house, so I wasn’t sitting around at home by myself at all!  wo0t.   pull-free today so far but we’ll see how it goes when I get home… got more school stufff to worry about…

Tags: pull-free day, pull diary, trich by Isis
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2 bites …

arghh…   !!

gettin tired….maybe that’s why…   putting down laptop and going to bed.

Tags: night time, pull diary, pulling in bed by Isis
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well, I made it through most of my day without pulling my hair out… up until the verrry end when I suddenly found myself doing it while I was stressing out over some school stuff…

I’d caught myself doing it a few more times, idly, whilst sitting at my comp earlier in the evening, but I’d been able to stop it from happening..  guess the school stuff was too much  -.-

I think it was somewhere around 15.   maybe only 6 follicles.

I’ve actually been pulling quite a lot this week, and I’m kinda bummed out about it, but… ehh… more on that next time… this is just a short little note to myself..

I’m going to try and keep better track of the amount of pulling, starting now, so this is a new category of posts..

Tags: school stress, night time, pull diary, follicles, trich, crown, stress by Isis
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