Sanitywarp.org:: Diary of a Trichster

wow, it’s been quite awhile since I’ve updated.  I guess I’ve been so busy with school and other stuff that it hasn’t been on my mind too much.   Although I’ve tried a few new things since the last time I wrote (started seeing the homeopath about 6 weeks ago, got ridiculously expensive fusion hair extensions from one of the supposedly best salons from around here, they ended up being AWFUL!!),  I am still largely in the same place as before.  I’ve got 3 huge bald patches in the usual places… crown and either side, near temples.I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety, so I’m not surprised I’m not doing too well at the moment.  I’m also depressed because of the hair stuff and some other things in general.  Thanks to my acrylic nails though, I still have my brows and lashes, at least.  I am currently on the waitlist for the MGH Trich clinic, and it could be several months before I get in there.  I hope it’s sooner.  :/   I will go into more detail about some of the stuff I’ve tried, next time  I write, which will hopefully not be too much longer from now.   But I thought I’d put a brief entry in here for the time being.   so.. until then..

Tags: pulling at desk, sore, pulling in bed, white hair, pulling in class, pulling in morning, mgh trich clinic, pulling at night, school stress, pulling at mirror, self esteem, crown, trichotillomania, hair extensions, ttm, trich, depression, pulling from scalp, trichster, bald spots, alternative healing, stress by Isis
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pulled like 30ish strands just now while I’m at my computer waking up.  For some reason it’s always the worst either late at night right before bed, or first thing in the morning after just waking up.  I wonder why that is?

I wish I could find a way to attach one of my wigs more permanantly to my head, I feel like I should glue it on while I wait this last 7 days before seeing my hair extensionist, so I don’t make it any worse!   That wouldn’t be too comfortable but at least it would stop me from doing it.  I actually just came across another trichster’s journal yesterday who had had it for 8+ years and wore a wig all the time, even to bed!  She wrote that she hadn’t had a comfortable nights sleep in all of those years!   wow.   I get uncomfortable enough to take them off after like 6 hours… but maybe I should give up some of that comfort for awhile, it might serve as a good reminder to the emotional discomfort that the physical discomfort of wearing a wig all the time will help get rid of..

hrmm, well…  7 more days.    starting right now.  wish me luck.

I’m off to the gym now to get some of this nervous energy out of my system… hopefully that’ll help too.

Tags: wigs, pulling in morning, pulling at desk, bald spots by Isis
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