Well, it’s been… almost 2 months now since I did most of the damage from the most recent episode… (although I probably originally started up again almost 4 months ago) and I still look like I was in some sort of horrific accident of some kind…. heh.
I have since seen my hypnotist, and I think it may have helped, although I have kept my hair so short until the rest finally grows in… so I haven’t had any hair to pull, anyway. I pray that it won’t be more than another 2 months before it all grows back in….it has made me so uncomfortable around friends, and my S.O … having to hide it consistently for the last 2 months…. having to wear a hat to bed when I spend the night with him… how embarrassing and very humbling. He, of course, knows of my problem and knows why I’m wearing the hat, but he offers very little support, if any. He never inquires about how I’m doing with it, well, sometimes he does, but it always to have the overtone of annoyance… well maybe not annoyance but it’s more like “so are you still pulling your hair out?” because it bothers him. Not to ask how I’m actually doing with it… but because it bothers HIM. A nice way to add insult to injury. Why are we human beings so selfish, and self-centered?
During the hypnosis we focused a little on the eyebrows, since those have become problematic again. Well… typically I almost always do that with my right hand… since I’m right-handed… and it’s always the left eyebrow that suffers more. My Dr. therefore gave more specific instructions for my right hand to …chill out, more or less… and that seems to have worked… although, now I’m pulling with my left hand! lol. So, the right eyebrow is mostly gone now. ahh well. I’ll be going back in another couple of weeks.. so we’ll try to fix that a little bit… hehe…
I’m also getting so sick and tired of wearing this goddamned bandana EVERY DAY I come in to work. It’s so goddamned uncomfortable after a few hours.. I just want to rip the damn thing off…. *sigh* ….. wigs are fun and all, but they itch after a couple of hours too… they’re fun to wear as an OPTION and not a necessity….. mehh…
Just realized my 10-year high school reunion is next year, as well… I really really hope that I can get more of a handle on this before then…. that’s the last thing I need is to have my former classmates knowing…..
Tags: crown, hypnosis, hypnotherapy, eyebrows by Isis
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