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wellll…..

here we go again.  bed is a BAD place to be with trich.   I’ve been doing it again…  my hair is barely even  long enough to grasp, but I’m doing it.  my thumbs are sore in the spot underneath my fingernails, as they usually are when I am pulling and have longer nails.

it’s finally almost all filled in now…   finally………
and I’m already starting to destroy the progress again  =/

seems like on some days I just have no control over it……..  since I’ve been able to control it for a little longer this time, but today and yesterday it just… happened before I could stop it……..

sigh….

ow..

I pulled both of my eyebrows completely off last night, while I was in bed reading.  Again… they had only have grown back from the previous episode.  This seems to be the usual cycle with me.  I only make it a certain amount of time before doing it all over again.

The area is very sore and tender… it hurt while I was doing it, but I couldn’t stop.
so… it’s back to looking like a cancer patient again.

this has definetely gotten me nervous in regards to the rest of my hair, which I have not begun to grow yet (I’m still waiting for those other spots on the front of my crown to catch up, as they are pretty noticeable, still).   How am I going to leave my hair alone if I can’t leave my eyebrows alone?  =(

I really hope that I can do this….  I’m going to try hard….  I am so tired of not having hair, and feeling self-concious about being bald and a girl…. I’m tired of getting made fun of for not having hair.   I hope that I can do it………

and now I just hope that I can leave my eyebrows alone for the next 2 months while they fill in again.   and continue to leave them alone after that.   but… we’ll see…..