today
pulled a little more today, in a different spot. so far its been maybe 10-12 hairs, I did these without really noticing, so I am attemping to stop now. I’m sitting at my computer, so its pretty automatic….
pulled a little more today, in a different spot. so far its been maybe 10-12 hairs, I did these without really noticing, so I am attemping to stop now. I’m sitting at my computer, so its pretty automatic….
oh no..
its starting…
today, for the first time in, I dont know how many months.. I began to pull from my right side near my ear.
my hair’s been long enough now to get a grip on it, for a little bit.. and I was just starting to wonder… how much longer til I start pulling it out now….
and well, there it goes. ><
guhhh.
I’m so tierd of cutting my hair. it’s fuckin winter now, too, dammit! too cold for a shaved head… =/
*sighhhh*
I have been pulling a bit at my lashes again too. something I do from time to time. I no longer VIOLENTLY pull them like I used to do when I was a kid. geez. I dunno how I could do that back then. now its more kinda like some firm pulling, and if one or two happen to come out, gr8. but if not… I don’t forcibly just pulllll them out.
oh well…….. cycle goes on… =/
and.. my fingertips are already getting sore! woah, I really am getting a bit older … my body starts taking the wear/tear much more quickly now….
I had an “ugly” day earlier this week….
when I go out to class and do other regular things during my day, I don’t bother to put on makeup or any of that garbage, and I also dress comfortably … jeans and a sweatshirt…
when my hair is at a certain length (around the 1-2inch mark) it looks really rather … ugly … and makes me look a lot more like a boy than I do with a freshly shaven head.
so I had one of those days recently. I hate my hair at this length but shaving it every few days is so much effort, I don’t bother. wigs solve that problem but I no longer wear those very often either - they itch and get tangled easily … I just can’t be bothered for things like going to class or doing errands…….
*sigh*
I may try to make another effort to grow it soon, but I think I know how that will go….. I can’t afford to go back and get hypnotherapy regularly, quite yet, but that’s something I think was really helping, so hopefully I’ll be able to get some funds together sometime…
I can’t seem to let my eyebrows grow… every time they start to come in… bam… gone again.. =/ I’ve been doing it in bed again before falling asleep. that spot seems to be one of my worst enemies - the other is at my desk in front of my computer.
just pulled them bare again last night, they HAD been growing in a little..
have been pulling from my crown again, too. My head is still buzzed really short.
I really wish I could grow it … I am so tired of not having any hair… =/