status update
still very much out of control. it’s all the time now. at home, in bed, in class, when out with people… everywhere. whole right side starting to be gone. resumed therapy with my original therapist this week. hopefully in a few weeks I’ll begin to have a grasp on this again. but right now… the addiction is far too strong…. =( And the pain brings far too much pleasure again….going on a tropical vacation tomorrow. I hope and pray I have the strength to control myself… I’ll be traveling with others… in close proximity… I’m hoping the sun will inspire me to try and heal…….. my poor scalp… it’s starting to swell in some places.. ><