pulling as a secondary action and reaction to stress…
man. So I’ve had a better week with the hair pulling… however, while writing an email just now, and laying in bed (another trigger.. .I probably should have been more cautious about this even just due to those 2 factors…) I was stressing out over the situation… and barely even noticing that I was steadily pulling at my right eyebrow this entire time. Now… 20 minutes later… the email is written, and sent. And I am missing almost my entire eyebrow. =(On a regular basis I often think to myself, “It’s ok. At least I’ve had my eyebrows for a long time.” Eyebrows used to be a big problem for me…I hardly ever had full brows a year or two ago. I was constantly worrying about the drawn in eyebrows coming off in situations. Especially around my boyfriend. Now I’m going to see my boyfriend tomorrow for the first time in awhile. Spend the night… and be all worried about my one eyebrow smudging off, the whole time…into the night, and the morning. Now I have to carry around an eye pencil again and worry about putting on makeup for the next month until it grows back. =( The next MONTH! And I’m going on a vacation in 2 weeks with a friend… where we’ll be swimming… thank god this is a trusted friend who knows about my problem… so I don’t have to be as worried… but still… it looks awful……….. I look diseased again =(This just shows how dangerous and aggressive pulling can be when it’s a secondary action… my main action was writing the email, but there was stress involved, on top of a trigger situation… and I wasn’t able to work hard at resisting…. and it just happened so fast… now the aftermath is going to last for a long time. =( Blahhh. After I had such a decent week with the other hairpulling…This is the first time in I can’t even remember how long since I’ve had missing eyebrows…. dammit… I hope I can hold onto the other one and that isn’t the next target…..
